Well...Today was, going to be honest, UBER hard...I had so many frustrations and hurt and pain today that it was hard to not just sit down and cry and scream like I truly wanted to.

I missed and still miss my family in Indiana. I miss my uncle and his AMAZING hugs...I miss my Joesphy and having him hold me as I cry about what's bothering me and reassure me. I miss being able to look at him and tell him about things happening in my life, including my new relationship. Sure, I can call him up but still, it's not the same. I miss my family in Indiana more than anything. I was remembering the times when we would sit around the fire pit outside and just cook hot dogs and marshmellows and sing together and just BE together and I did something I don't think I've EVER done....like, in my whole life.....I BURST OUT CRYING O_o It shocked me cause like, I HAVE never done that before, or at least I don't remember doing it. I just miss them so much and I'd give ANYTHING to be able to see them again...I got to see them for TWO days in December and it made me realize just how much I miss my hilly billy side of the family...=_(

Then, I got yelled at and stuff for my faith because I told my ex that I couldn't be with him and that was probably the hardest thing I've ever done. It hurt SO bad but I know I had to do it...I WANT to live FULLY for the Lord...Besides, it wouldn't be fair to be with him, when I'm falling in love with another man....And yes, I am falling....Although that story is for another post....

Anywho...Right now, I just want to go to bed and ball my eyes out BBBBUUUTTT I think I will stay up a bit and read the Bible and pray and then maybe read some Nicholas Sparks as well, just to make me feel better...I should probably take some ibuprofen for my head as well...Toodles...