If You Really Knew Me...

You'd know that I'm the world's biggest goof and am totally random

That I have a past and even though, I'm still dealing with it, I use it every chance I get to help others with the same problems or experiences

You would know that I usually don't open-up to alot of people and that when I finally do, I'm putting a lot of trust in you and it takes me a while to get everything out...

You would know that, my stories and songs are words and feelings I can't say or have a hard time expressing and that by reading it, you could get to know me better...

That I believe in fairy tales and true love, even though I've never had either of those...

You would know that people would call me cold because I don't show feelings or cry in front of people but that's only because I have a hard time opening up..

You would know that I was a foster kid when I was younger before I was adopted so I can relate to a lot of foster kids...

You would know that I'm a fighter and that I'd fight for the ones I love, even if means I'd lose my life....

That I have very strong beliefs and I try my best to live by those....

That I hate drama, gossip, or silly rumors...I've lost friends over that and it's not worth it to me to do it again...

I can be a blonde sometimes...

I may look secure on the outside, but I have a lot of insecure moments....

You would know that I have been made fun of all my life so I hate bullies and will fight for those who are pushed down for no reason..

I'm not like other girls...

I'm a tomboy and I like riding four wheelers in the mud...

I don't care about whose dating who or impressing that one guy with my hairdo or my "pretty" nails

That I love learning about History, or Greek mythology, or that I keep books even if I never read them just so I can say I have that book...

You would know that my friends and family are my life...

You would know that I'm very protective and I always suspect the worst...

That once you become my friend, your always my friend, even if we never talk or see each other and we'll always be friends unless you damage our friendship yourself...

You would know that I can get pretty emotional.

You know know that I shut myself down because I’m afraid of letting my emotions show.

You would know that I'm scared of being alone or that everyone's gonna leave me because of the way I always screw up or because I disappoint them so much...

You would know that I think about important things in this world that are serious and mean a lot to me...Stuff most people my age don't care about...

You would know that I have many unrealistic dreams that I will most likely never accomplish or do, and so I don't dream as much anymore...

You would know that I cry a lot and easily when I'm alone....

The one who won't ask you to change to make me happy, but instead try to form to your ways

I'm the type of girl who would rather stay up all night talking and sharing secrets than going out and getting drunk.

You would know that I'm very rebellious and that I usually do what I want, no matter what people says...

I stand up for what I believe in..

I don't like being in big crowds where I don't know that many people....I get uncomfortable and feel alone...

I fell like im disappointing you.

You would know that I have small panic attacks when there is too much happening around me and that there's not much people can do to calm me down except leave me alone...

You would know that a part of me likes being alone cause that's how I've been for most of my life...

You would know, that I'm gratefull for everything I have in my life and all the people in it...even though I act un-grateful most of the time.

You would know I hate being made fun of...even if it's the slightest joke.

If you really knew me, you'd know I hardly say whats on my mind anymore cause I'm afraid people willl just stop talking to me if I saythe wrong thing that might upset them. Even though I shouldn't have to hide it. :/

I say dude all the time

I like it to be known that I can take care of myself...I always have...

You would know that even though I act courageous, there's a lot that scares me...I just don't always show it...

You would know that I don't always feel comfortable showing who I really am, cause I'm afraid people wouldn't understand me or would hate me for it...

You would know that I don't always know what I want or need and that it takes me a long time to figure it out...

I am confusing and tiring and boring and emotional...

You would know I just want to be accepted for who I am...

That I have my own problems, but I don't always show them to people....

Guys aren't better than girls and girls aren't better than guys so stop being a jerk and acting like that's how it is...

Do you know me now?