If Your Gonna Fall In Love With Me....

If your gonna fall in love with me, it's only fair that you know what your falling in love with. Your falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsessions with finding out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity and silliness, my occasional un-trusting moments, my constant need to be love and appreciated, my fear of losing everyone I love, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my stubbornness, my constant worrying, my constant comparison to other girls. You fall in love with my troubled past that I have a hard time letting go of, my hopes and dreams, even the impossible ones, my fears, including my huge fear of failing at everything, and how I am a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate, my moodiness, all my imperfections, my occasional seriousness, and my stupid perception that no one in this world could ever possibly love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I'm with you, the way I'll text you in the mornings, just to tell you I love you and have a good day, the way my voice will change when I hear your voice over the phone, the way I'll stare at you randomly cause I think your handsome, the way I will squeeze your hand, hoping to never let go. Your falling in love with the occasional humorous, and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people talk about you or mentions your name. You fall in love with my sudden shyness when I'm around you, the little looks at you from the corner of my eye just to make sure your really there, my nervous little habits. But, to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite me thinking it's impossible.