RECKLESS

I honestly wish I could. To go out there and be with friends and just have fun and not be stressed or worry about wedding details or financial details or relationship troubles. Not having to worry about ANYTHING but to just BE and feel alive. That's why I like putting on red lipstick or going clubbing. Both are innocent and make you feel just a little bit alive, just a little bit dangerous without actually being dangerous. I'm gonna try to go clubbing with my girls before the wedding. Might be my bachorlette party.

-SIGH- I've littlerly never felt as stressed as I have these past two-three months planning this wedding. All the little details and the parents freaking out about everything and having no money to get anything done just drain my energy. I FEEL old and I realize I'm WAY too young to be feeling like this. People say the 20's are when your supposed to be at your peak and feel alive and go clubbing with your peeps and just being alive and yet, it's not gonna happen for me. For me, so far it's just stress. To be honest, I can't wait till this wedding's over just because it's so stressful. If I had known it was gonna be this stressful, I would have opted for just a small 10 minute ceremony on the beach, not this whole huge thing. Xl Whatever...It is what it is....Xl