This Is SO True It Makes Me Want To Cry =(

Whether you realize it or not, God has already given you everything you need to live the life He’s called you to. You don’t need to feel stressed out, worried or afraid. You don’t have to wonder if you’re “good enough” to receive from God because God’s blessing has nothing to do with your performance. He has already blessed you and given you everything you need by His divine power!

Choose Life By: Michelle Freeman in remembrance of Kyle Brent Hansen

Choose Life

I woke up this morning
the sun shining in my eyes
Disgusted with the world
and empty inside

There was no one there to hug me
or say, "have a nice day,"
Even though the sun was bright
my day was dark and gray

I looked into the mirror
and hated what I saw
decided it was time
Time to end it all

I tried to tell my friends how bad it hurt inside
I tried to tell them all
How bad it hurt to cry

They didn't listen to me
they didn't even care
They said no comforting words
This weights too much to bear

If I wait until tomorrow
I know it won't get better,
I decided not to wait
and I began a sorrow letter.

As I said Good-bye to this world and all the grief
I didn't think of those I would hurt
By my killing me

The sun stopped shining and my body became frail
I knew that I was getting away from this place of hell

All that I remember is the pain that wouldn't die
Neither did I
As I heard my loved ones cries
Lying in a hospital bed
I prayed for one more try
But why should I deserve it,
I had wanted to die.

Now here I am again
the sun shining in my eyes
and every day I thank the Lord
for drying the tears I cried

Life has new meaning
because I 've learned that Life's worth living
And that to get the love you want
You must start by self forgiving.

Just wanted to say I am sorry
for all the pain I caused.
I never thought of the consequences
that on each of you would fall.

No matter how deep the pain
the burdens or the strife
Death is NOT the answer
You must hang on and CHOOSE life.

By: Michelle Freeman in remembrance of Kyle Brent Hansen


I miss him so much....=(

I PROMISE.

This Is So True That It Makes Me Want To Cry...

I Seriously Miss The Beach More Than I Can Say...Why I Gotta Be Such A Fish?!?

I Wish I Could Go To A Carnival...I've Never Been To One...=(

Elegem van a sérül. Unom már, hogy egy szexuális tárgy minden egyes srác az életemben. Csak azt akarom, egy srác, hogy szeressen az én személyiséggel rendelkezik, és felejtse el, mint a testem. Fene! Bárcsak kövér volt, hogy így nem srác szeretne velem testem. A szívem csinos újra. Lesz valaha is igazán gyógyult vagy rögzített??

Promise In The Dark

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bTrKXEd1USo


A Promise In The Dark lyrics

Listen

Can't count on you most of all when I really need it
It's the simple things that you do, really hurt my feelings
The more I try, the more I'm starting to see it
This can't work anymore, than you believe it

Goodbye may come as a shock
Even though I love you a lot
I've given every breath I've got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

Add how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals, and it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals, and it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

Listen

I just don't know what the problem is, what the deal is
Was I there too much, did I move too fast, I couldn't see it?
All these promises are probably how you deal with it
I'm tired of hearing you say your innocent

Don't think I forgot
Because I really didn't, who cares if you're lying or not
I've given every breath I've got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

Add how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals, and it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals, and it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

We all make mistakes
Sometimes we do desperate things
What does it prove? NOTHING
And you never do nothing wrong

Then what took you so long, took you so long
Cuz I keep, keep hanging on, keep, keep hanging on

Add how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals, and it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals, and it equals
A promise in the dark
So don't promise me

So don't promise me
So don't promise me

THANKS HUN. YOU JUST BASICALLY SHOWED ME THE ONLY THING I'M GOOD FOR....WELL, THANKS. WHAT A WAY TO FEEL LOVED. NOW DO ME A FAVOR AND LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE. GO GET YOUR SEXUAL HIGH SOME PLACE ELSE. I'M NO ONE'S WHORE.

The Truth About Girls

Truth about girls.
Guys, once you have a girl in your hands, 98% of the time, they’re yours. They don’t want to lose you. They’re constantly scared that they’ll lose you to another girl that they believe is so much prettier than them. No matter how much you tell them that they’re beautiful, they’ll doubt you and wonder why you’re even with them. They’ll want your attention. If she says she loves you, better believe that she freaking loves you. Her heart is fragile so take good care of it. Once you even start cracking it, or wrinkling it, she’s gonna start having doubts about you. But chances are, if you make one mistake, she’ll forgive you just because she loves you that much that she believes you’ll change. SO TREAT HER GOOD. Because she gives you the kind of love that’s rare to find a second time.

My baby fell asleep!!! He looks so handsome and peaceful when he sleeps. I love watching him....

I Seriously Want To Go To The Beach..

Why lyrics by Jason Aldean

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-VbQnxzgmS8


Why lyrics by Jason Aldean

It's 3 AM and I finally say
I'm sorry for acting that way
I didn't really mean to make you cry
Oh baby, sometimes I wonder why

[CHORUS]
Why does it always have to come down
To you leaving
Before I'll say 'I love you'
Why do I always use the words
That cut the deepest
When I know how much it hurts you
Oh baby why, do I do that to you

I know I'd never let you walk away
So why do I push you 'til you break
And why are you always on the verge of good-bye
Before I'll show you how I really feel inside

[CHORUS]
Why does it always have to come down
To you leaving
Before I'll say 'I love you'
Why do I always use the words
That cut the deepest
When I know how much it hurts you
Oh baby why, do I do that to you

Why do I always use the words that cut the deepest
When I know how much it hurts you
Oh baby why, do I do that to you
Why do I do that to you

The PERFECT solution to a horrible night...

IF YOUR GONNA GET MAD EVERY TIME I CAN'T SKYPE WITH YOU OR WON'T, THEN LET'S CALL THIS OFF RIGHT NOW. I HAVE A LIFE TOO. I'M TIRED OF LOSING FRIENDS OR NOT BEING ABLE TO TALK TO THEM BECAUSE I'M TOO BUSY TALKING WITH YOU. I'M DONE BEING NICE. I'M GONNA START SAYING NO A LOT MORE AND YOU NEED TO GET OVER IT. I'M TIRED OF GIVING IN SO EASILY AND I WON'T DO IT ANYMORE. SORRY.

WOW...I Just Want To Cry Now...

I am in shock. Josiah has never been that....I want to say mean and cruel to me before. It took me really off guard. I've litterly been cleaning ALL day and then, not only my brother but a couple other friends as well are mad at me because I barely talk to them anymore or skype with them, and my dad's been irritated at me because I didn't go help him at the house AGAIN. Not only that, but I've been missing Cali and the beach so much that I've felt lonely and depressed almost. And I go onto skpe to talk to Josiah and have him cheer me up and the first thing he says when I say I can't go on camera because of certain things is "Whatever." O_o OUCH. BURN MUCH?!? So, not only have I been working hard and am completely exhausted, my night has been completely ruined and all I want to do is go to bed and cry. Maybe I will do that. Get it out of my system since I rarely cry anymore. What a way to end a day. Whatever my butt. Forget this stupid crap.

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