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The Greatest Irony of Love :

The Greatest Irony of Love :

Loving the right person at the wrong time or having the wrong person when the time is right; finding out you love someone after that person walks out of your life. For some, they think that letting go is one way of expressing how much they love that person. Some are afraid to see the one they love being held by someone else. Most relationships tend to fail not because of the absence of love, but because love is always present. It’s just that one was being loved too much, and the other was being loved too little. Most often, we fall in love with the person we think we love, but to only discover that for them we are just for past times. While the one who truly loves us remains either your friend or a stranger.

When you think of your past love; you may view it as a failure; but when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn’t really matter who won or who lost. What’s important is that you know when to hold on and when to let go. You know that you love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you’re not apart of it. Everything happens for a reason and for its best. If the person you love doesn’t love you back, don’t be afraid to love someone else again, for you’ll never know unless you give it a try.

You’ll never truly love a person, unless you risk for their love; love strives in hurting. If you don’t get hurt, then you won’t learn how to love. Love doesn’t hurt all the time; though the hurting is there to test you, to help you grow. Don’t find love, let love find you; that’s why it’s called falling in love, because you don’t need to force yourself to love, you just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing the chapters. If you want to move on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress. But why is it that the greatest irony of love is letting go when you want to hold on, and holding on when you need to let go? You can never find the right person if you can never let it go of the wrong, but at the same time the moment you feel like letting go, you remember why you held on for so long. Sometimes you have to forget what you want and remember what you deserve.
To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying and to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing at all. To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose your true self. To love is to risk not being loved in return.

How to define love: Fall but do not stumble. Be constant but not too persistent. Share and never be unfair. Understand and try not to demand. Hurt but never keep the pain.
Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom; whom they choose to be and where they choose to go. Loving someone means giving them the freedom to find their way, whether it leads towards you or away from you.

Love can be a painful risk. To love means that risk must be taken, no matter how scary or painful, for only then will you experience the fullness of humanity of what we call love. If you’re not ready to cry, if you’re not ready to take the risk and if you’re not ready to feel the pain, then you’re not ready to fall in love.

Frustrated and Crying...

Seriously? I just can't stop crying right now I'm so frustrated. Chels is mad at me 'cause we haven't gotten to skype in a while because I've been so busy and was talking to my cousin, David is just whatever, I'm tired and don't feel good and am dealing with some of my old insecurities right now. All I wanted was a night to myself where I could listen to some piano or jazz music and read cause I haven't done that in a LONG time, but no, people need me!

People ALWAYS need me! They ALWAYS depend on me and I have no clue why! I have no clue why the Lord made me as a caring/supportive/loving person whose supposed to be a leader or whatever. To be fully honest, I wish I wasn't like that. What happened to the days where I was in high school and no one could guilt trip me or mess with my head and emotions? What happened to that girl? Oh yea, I forgot...I KILLED her...I killed her because I was tired of not being good enough and hurting people by pushing them away...But the truth is, all these people messing with my emotions and my head just make me want to push everyone away all over again. I could be all alone again, and you know what? I may not be happy but at least I'd know that people were taking me seriously for once...>=(

Here's A Little Bit About Me...So Listen Up!

Ok,
So...I was thinking and came up with these...I'm sorry if you guys don't agree...But I think these are true about me....Read and see

1. I will NEVER, EVER tell a friends secrets unless it will physically hurt them. I don't hurt people like that. I'm not a two-faced.

2. I'm a fighter. I'm not afraid to stand up for what I believe in or love, even if it means getting physical. I don't back down easily and will fight for those closest to me because they are truly worth it.

3. I may act all out-going, party-er, happy-go-lucky....but that doesn't mean there's nothing that bothers me. I just don't choose to show it. Stuff WILL bother me, and does...I just choose not to show it and to burden others with it....That's just how I am.

4. I am lazy a lot, but there are still a lot I want to do and accomplish, some I probably never will. I have a lot of big dreams; I just can't do them all.

5. When I am angry, don't say to me "relax" or to just leave it alone. That bugs me more than anything else! THE REASON I'M GETTING ANGRY IS BECAUSE IT'S A BIG DEAL TO ME!!! Whatever it is. I very rarely get really mad about anything, just irritated. But when I do, please give me some space. I have a tendency to blow up.

6. I have a tendency to care...like, ALOT. I worry about how others are feeling or if I've hurt them. That's just who I am. I do worry about you. If you think I'm NOT worrying about you, it's because I'm not showing it..I do worry about how others are feeling. It's in my personality..Get used to it..

7. I WILL NOT GIVE UP ON FRIENDS!!! If it's not that important, yea, I'll give up. BUT NOT ON FRIENDS!!! You friends mean alot to me. I'm not just gonna desert you when you need me most. I don't desert my friends even if you don't want me there. So, get use to me having me around 'cause I'm not going anywhere...HAHHAHA...

8. I LOVE to write. It's how I express myself. In my stories or poems, you can find out A LOT about me.I write about what's important to me such as love, family, friends, my fears. Writing helps me sort out all the thoughts in my head. I love to write and if people read my stories or poems really closely, you could find out stuff about me you never knew.

9. Just because I am not physically there for my friends, doesn't mean I am not there. I am always here to talk about anything that's bothering you guys or that you want some kind of advice about. All you have to do is email me and I will get back to you as soon as possible with words that I hope will help. I'm always here for you.....

10. I believe strongly in Love. I've had people say to me "Love doesn't exist or at least true love doesn't." HAHAHHAA. I believe that there's always at least 3 other people for one person out there. So, if you miss out on it the first time, there's always a 2nd or 3rd time for it. Love is something I really believe in and I hate it when people criticize me about it. This is just my belief so stop criticizing me about it please.

11. I live a story in my head. What I mean is, I make my life into a story in my head. It adds so creativity to my life and plus, it helps me get better at my English(it's true!). I know that sounds weird but it is quite fun and it makes you look at your life just a little bit differently, so yea. It's cool.

12. Another way I express my feelings is through music. I love music and love to sing. I can relate to most songs and that's why I love it. So, if you see I'm angry and I instantly turn on my music, it's cause I'm working out my anger and problems and don't want to be disturbed( No offense.). I can really relate to music. It helps me alot.

13. I AM RANDOM!!!! I'm also weird but that's different. LOL....I act like a little kid sometimes but only because that's the only way to have fun and live. Everyone's a kid at heart. I'm just a bigger kid than everyone else. I do weird things and say weird things that probably only make sense to me and my best friends. It's just who I am. I'm sorry if you don't like me, but I won't change for anyone. I love who I am. That's just how it is.

14. I HATE it when my friends say to me" Aw, Natalie. I wish I could be like you" or "I wish I had your body. Your so slim and never gain weight." I HATE THAT!!! Aka, I'M NOT PERFECT!!! I don't have the perfect body or the perfect personality. In fact, my personality has A LOT of flaws and so does my body. The only reason I'm so slim is 'cause I have a fast metabolism. I DO gain weight; I just burn it off before it has a chance to stay...LOL...I do have some fat but mostly, I'm all muscle. And you know what? Sometimes, just sometimes, I wish I DID gain weight 'cause then people could see that I'm just like everyone else. I am not perfect!!!

15. So, we all know every girl is looking for Mr. Right...AKA, Prince Charming. I don't need Prince Charming. Yes, it would be nice to have someone who's all perfect. But, come on, let's face it. NO ONE'S PERFECT!!! I don't need a guy who's perfect. It'd be boring. All I need is someone who loves the Lord, accepts me for who I am, won't be afraid to talk to me about things, doesn't treat me like a sex-toy, and accepts my friends and family. He doesn't have to like them; Just accept them. He needs to support me. I don't want Prince Charming. But, I would love a Charming Prince. LOL

10 Guys Should Know About Girls

1. We don’t like it when you fart. Especially if you do it in bed, or while we’re eating. Gross, not funny… and you’re wasting your time thinking that we’ll ever “learn to love them.”

2. Don’t make fun of us when we’re with our friends. Funny in small doses, annoying when you do it constantly. Keep doing it and you’ll pretty much guarantee yourself no “goodies” for awhile.

3. We know you’re hot, that’s one of the reasons we’re dating you. But that doesn’t mean you have to act like you know how hot you are by constantly walking around shirtless, flexing your muscles, etc. Confidence is hot – cockiness is not.

4. Even if you guys say you like us better dressed down with no makeup, wearing makeup and dressing up makes us feel pretty and boosts our confidence, so at least reward the hard work we do to make ourselves look good by telling us so.

5. Those t-shirts with the giant designs on the front (or, worse, the button downs with the giant designs on the back) are not cute. They are douchey. Please don’t wear them. (Also on this list: sweatbands, sweatpants with the elastic in the bottom, slip on sandals and over-sized plastic sunglasses with giant designers names on the side.)

6. Holidays and anniversaries might not seem like a big deal to you, but they are to us. Even if we say we don’t want something for Valentine’s Day, we want something. It isn’t the “thing” we care about; it is the fact that you are thinking about us. So think about us, dammit.

7. Thongs are really uncomfortable. You may think they are the end all be all of sexy, but they hurt.

8. Our friends are like a second family to us, so once you’re in with them, you’re set for life. Even though we know they’re loud and obnoxious sometimes, learn to love ‘em. We deal with your boys, so do the same for us.

9. There’s nothing we hate more than being called crazy or dramatic. No matter how much you think we overreact about our problems, they matter to us and we need you on our side to support us, rather than making us feel worse.

10. If it’s possible that there is anything worse than calling us crazy, it’s comparing us to other girls. I know it’s a double standard that we should be allowed to drool over any shirtless picture of Zac Efron we find in Us Weekly, while freaking out when you make a comment about any female celeb in a bikini. You might not realize it, but we automatically compare ourselves to every other girl on the planet, so saying another girl is hot makes us think we’re not good enough. Crazy, maybe, but we’re just being honest.10